I kept a journal almost every single day for nearly ten years. And, although much of the content of those diary entries was private (as in, I’d be in HUGE trouble if my parents ever read it), often embarrassing, and seemingly pointless to save – I saved them. Every. Single. One. Sounds silly, but I always knew, deep inside, that I’d need them one day.
It is a rare gift to have these daily accounts of my life through the entirety of my teen years. I also have two huge poetry books that were written throughout that same time. In these pages I find laughter, pain, confusion, growth, tons of immaturity and ridiculousness, and a wealth of insight into the insanity (literally) of the teenage mind. (If you’re a teen and you’re reading thins… trust me, you guys are all INSANE… but I love you anyways.)
This project will allow me to open up these long-buried diaries and share them with anyone who wishes to read. Sure, it was a few years ago – but the struggles are the same. I’ll couple the shared entries with my responses to them now – in many cases, ten years later. If only I could have really been there to give myself the advice I have now.
In many instances, I’m nervous – no – petrified – to share the content of these entries. Many of them are raw, humiliating, and some are even down-right stupid. But, they were me in another time. And so much of what will be read is relevant and painfully real. Kind of like an under-ages Soap-opera told by a neurotic, in-cohesive, obsessive, sporadic narrator who never knows what craziness the next scene entails.
I can only pray that my mistakes and lessons-learned can shed light, offer a giggle, a tear, a pin-drop of inspiration or encouragement.
This project goes very closely hand-in-hand with my current book and speaking work, entitled “Project LIGHT” where I endeavor to encourage teen girls and women to defy the norm by rejecting negative Media messages about women, feminity, sex, and the value of these precious beings called ‘girls’ in our world by shedding LIGHT on the lies and darkness of current media attitudes and trends.
If you are a teen girl, young woman, or parent and you’d like to be interviewed for my upcoming articles, book, and speaking tour about women and how the media affects us and culture – PLEASE, email me!